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“If all we have is right now, what happens when you don't know what to do with it?”

“If all we have is right now, what happens when you don’t know what to do with it?”

And so began the most confusing time of my life.

You see, for many years, I had pursued one goal. Fueled by an artistic bent and great ambition, I wanted to become an awesome rock star. I went some way to achieving that – a big fish in a very, very small pond – but, the closer I got to the Ultimate Goal, the more I realised I didn’t want it.

Like most of us I plodded along, thinking it would be OK in the end, this was just a blip and I would rediscover my passion. Except I didn’t.

2014 was set to be the year everything came to a head. The Universe intervened and life as I knew it was set to change. Dramatically. It was the beginning of the kick-up-the-bum I needed, toward a goal I didn’t yet know, on a playing field I did not understand.

I was confused. I didn’t know what to do. My head hurt. So I decided to write things down. To better understand my predicament, I documented the last four years of the band (from the moment I thought I was at the bottom of the ladder looking up, when, in actual fact, I was at the top of the ladder looking down), whilst exploring the events that have shaped me, my circumstances, my predicament.

Oh, and there was also the matter of the the not too disagreeable £80,000.

It wasn’t meant to be a book.

But it became one.

This one.

I hope you enjoy it.

Received this book yesterday via Amazon Prime and read it cover to cover in less than a day!!

I have been following “Spit Like This” and “Smell Your Mum” for many years on Social Media (and attended “middle school” with Lord Zion). Whilst I was familiar with much of the content, there were some surprising (and often touching) insights into some of Z’s inner thoughts and feelings through some of his darker times. Of these, I was very much unaware and this came as something of a surprise (I’m not sure I could be as publically open about such things).

I’d be fascinated to understand and see reviews from those who may be less familiar with Z and V than perhaps I am and wonder how this would translate in terms of “memoirs of stranger” … but I myself certainly enjoyed the book (and that is from someone who rarely reads anything other than technical manuals).

The chapters are short so it is an easy book to simply pick up and put down between tasks if time is short but similarly you can do as I did, and complete it in a single sitting over a lazy Sunday afternoon….

  • Published: 7th May 2018
  • Paperback – 136 pages
  • ISBN 978-1535047364
  • Buy now at your local independent bookshop or on Amazon